Anyway, today my hair started falling out. I knew it would happen and I'm not particularly upset about it. It is weird, though. I was sitting at the record store and I twirled a bit at the ends of my hair as I sometimes do and a bunch of strands came out in my hand. It could not be described as a clump, but definitely a bunch of hair. Like 20 strands or so.
I called my friend Lu. Lu works at the Salon next to our record shop. We had talked about this moment - the hair falling out moment - and decided it would be best to shave my head when it started happening. So I called her up.
"It's starting to come out. My hair."
Up until Lu said oh shit, this moment was a little bit like telling someone your going into labor. - It's happening. What should we do?
So I told Lu I might need to go ahead and shave it in the next couple of days. She said, "Dude I'll come shave that shit right now." Did I mention that Lu is cute as a doe, sweet as almond milk and funny like a fox?
Since I want to explain to Luka what is happening with the Hair, I will wait till tomorrow or Tuesday to shave it off. She is skiing today at Mt. Hood with Scott and I don't want her to come home to bald mom. When I told her that the medicine I'm taking would make my hair fall out, she didn't want to talk about it at first and then she turned to me and said, "It might be weird to look at you. With no hair."
The great thing about Gilly's Salon being next door is that those ladies own things like wigs and some of those ladies, like Emie, own like a hundred wigs. I could wear a different one everyday. (Right, Emie?) Or I could wear beautiful silken scarves that will be prettier than my hair anyway and I can still look in the mirror and be a little bit vain.
With cancer, it always comes down to the the hair. I won't miss it so much as I will miss my life with hair. Being bald is the cancer signal and from here on out, I won't be so incognito with my damn ugly mutating cells. People will see my pretty scarf and know I am sick.
They won't know if I am wearing a cute pixie cut blonde wig, I guess though. Anyone got one of those? Also, I've heard some people's hair grows back different, like thicker and curly sometimes. Maybe mine will grow back into a cute blonde pixie cut. I'm just sayin.